Rugby Mad

Tuesday, August 30, 2005

My camp mate, Rashid, was telling me this story about this girl who was his girlfriend's friend who wanted to become bad.Bad as in being someone who smokes and drinks basically and do all those wild stuff.In my opinion, if someone who drinks or smokes is not bad. They are just misunderstood but my opinions is not the issue here. Anyway Rashid ran out of ciggies so he asked the girl for a stick.But the girl had only one stick of ciggarette so Rashid suggest that they "steng" it.

For those of you who do not know the Malay language, "steng" is a short for for "setengah" which basically means half.But for smokers it means to share the cigarrette.But this girl did not know so to Rashid's horror, the girl go break the ciggie into two.The following conversation ensues:

Rashid: Why the hell did you break the cigarrettes in two?

Girl: I thought you want to "steng" it.

Rashid: Ya lah. It means to share the cigarrette you %#%$$#@%%$#@ girl.

Poor Rashid. To face a stupid minah all by himself and he can't scold the girl cause she's his girlfriend's friend.

This story is for all those wannabe bad boys and girls.

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Sunday, August 28, 2005

It sounds easy on the brochure.Just go cold turkey.It's the fastest and most effective way. Yeah,only it forget to mention the part about the coughs and running nose in the morning. Actually it's not as bad as last time when I tried to stop.But this just the beginning so it could get worse.Hopefully I'll manage to stop for more than a month.It would make my mom a happy woman.She don't exactly support me using my money buying stuff that harm myself.

And while I'm on a roll on quitting all these "bad" stuff, I shall stop drinking alcoholic drinks too.It's scary that I reached the stage where I was almost become alcoholic and so far it's been okay.At least I'm not waking up and start thinking about the bottle of JD in my cupboard in camp. Last I heard, they took that bottle out and had a mini happy hour on the roof.When I asked, they said they heard that I'm quitting smoking and drinking so they took the initiative to finish up the bottle to prevent me from being tempted from drinking it.Damn fuckers. But it works ah. If not I'll keep using my green mug to mix the JD and Pepsi.Rocking combination I tell ya.

Well it was fun getting wasted but it was taking too much out of me. Here's to me being sober and smoke-free.Yeeeeeeehaaaaaaaaaaaa...

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Wednesday, August 24, 2005

It's time like this I feel like buying a pack of cigarettes and smoking it away as I try to think my life through. It is tiring to laugh all the time and try to pretend that it will all work out. In the end I am only left with the bitter taste of disapointment again. This sounds like me whining but I'm just trying to get rid of this stuff from my back.

Nine more months to ORD. A date that I've been waiting for a fucking long time. It's nice to be working with people of different background. But so far I cannot stand working with those Chinese who are highly-educated and rich or think that they are richer than a son of a barber. They think they are always right and always try to avoid work. I don't exactly love National Service but my thinking is since I'm already in NS, why not have some fun along the way? These Chinese guys think differently. They try to avoid duty by reporting sick and only cause other people to do their duties for them.Is this a preview of working life in the future?

find a way

Sometimes I wish I could meet some people from my past again. The girl from my kindergarden, my primary school Malay teacher, people who have in their own ways steered me in this journey of life.People who I am extremely comfortable to talk to as they respect me for who I am and not what I sometimes try to pretend to be. People who do not laugh at you but with you. Real friends. People that are extremely hard to find again.

I wanted to write an e-mail to you.I wrote a draft on a piece of paper. Instead of sending it to you, I burned the paper away and watch as the ashes blew in the wind. It's too late to change things anyway.

Sorry for sounding so serious this time but I'm just tired of being me tonight.

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Sunday, August 21, 2005

Rest In Peace Girl...

It's nice to see your relatives after like 1 year of not seeing them except in pictures and videos.I was at Malaysia for my cousin's wedding and that means I'm the fourth in line to get married.That's scary but anyway I finally get to see my cousins' new children and my cousins were thinking of what they want the children to call me and finally settled on Obek Hilmi.Damn, I feel old.

Anyway I think weddings are cool as you can get to see your cousin's other side of the family.Especially the female side.And the best thing is you can go all out without feeling guilty as you are leaving for Singapore in a few days.The not so good thing is they look older with their tudung on.Imagine my horror when I asked this girl who I thought was 19 and found out that she was only 16.Blistering Sea Crabs.

But it was nice to be in a different environment.It makes you think of your life in a different view.I got wasted the other day and it was very scary to think that I was drunk for like 3 days in a row.I'm trying to quit smoking and drinking before it's too late.It just gets too expensive and having someone tell you things you've done that you can't recall the next day to be too freaky.

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Wednesday, August 17, 2005

I'm finding myself not knowing the words to write down my feelings.I've been busy thinking about some stuff from the past.But whenever I try to write it down, it's difficult.It's like there's a force stopping you,trying to convince you that the situation will not be like this in the future.

But when? And I'm going KL this weekend so I'll be not seeing you guys again.Finally a change of environment.It'll be nice to see what the Malaysians are up to these days.

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