Rugby Mad

Sunday, September 25, 2005

It's been like ages since I smoked or drink ( for those little kids, I mean drinking alcoholic drinks. Remember kids, don't drink and drive. ) and believe me it has not been easy. It's all up to me now actually. My friends did try to tempt me but thankfully I managed to say no even though it was damn hard. It seems easier to just take the cigarette and smoke than say no to smoking. Even then, I admit I did sometimes forget and smoke but it was just a few puffs till I realize what I was doing. Other than that, I've been saving money since I don't buy cigarettes now and finally I feel a bit healthier than usual. At least now I can walk from my camp to Yew Tee Mrt without feeling breathless.

Is it okay to pretend that it is okay? I've been busy trying to find closure to somethings in my past. Sometimes you feel the world is against you and you are all alone, trying to survive each day as it comes. Everyday hoping that tomorrow will be a better day. So far, I feel I've began to accept some stuff that happened which I totally resent. This is weird but somehow it's therapeutic to write down my resentment on pieces of paper and then burn them and watch it burn to ashes. ( For little kids, do this under adult supervision. Your parents will be angry if you burn down the house.).

I'll end this post with a very serious question and I wish that you reflect on this question.

WHAT'S SMELLIER THAN A SMELLY CAT?

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