It was a depressing week in the beginning but it turned out fine in the end. That's what driving my self forward now, everything will be alright in the end. Hopeful? Maybe. But it gives me something to look forward to when I wake up in the morning.
My family's taking a bus trip to KL this year for Hari Raya. My family's changing car and the one the agent giving us temporarily is kinda small for a trip up north. I'm looking forward to the experience of taking the bus to balik kampung. I wonder if it will be anything like those bus trips in those Malay movies?
Nizam's back from Brunei. Though I don't say it, I miss that bugger while he was away. I'm glad he's back. Eh Zam if you are reading this, let's try to stop smoking eh? If Christopher Lee can do it, why can't we? I think the guys should go play CS one of these days. It's been a long time since we done that. I miss the feeling of killing Jid easily. But we do have to put up with the ritual of Ajid asking people to pay for him. He always does this almost everytime we asked him to pay for something even now when he is earning more than us. But in the end he always pay for himself and sometimes a bit more. Heh.
I think I need to put in more effort in my friendship with Nazri. It's a bit hard to talk to him than the rest as I never was that close to him. For Ajid and Sham, I got close with them while working with them . For Isk, it was while we were doing all the stupid stuff we did while in the same class in JC. For Zam and Pul , I had known them since Sec One and I am always comfortable with the. But for Naz, ever since that misunderstanding in Sec 4 , I always felt akward with him. But it's certainly better now than before. I just felt I need to know him better as a friend.
I realized I don't have a group picture of the guys. The last time I think we took a group photo was at Naz's birthday last year before I went NS where we were sitting in a row but the photo got lost or deleted. I think I should take a group picture of them because they are an important group in my life, Naztay, Mr Direct, Solo, Big Daddy Pimpin, Beyond Cool and Underdog.
Let the good times roll
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Sometimes it gets tiring when the world show it's ugly side too many times. Too tiring
I don't feel like going out with the guys this week and maybe the next except maybe celebrate Nizam's birthday if he had indeed came back. But other than that I need a time out from the guys at least for now.
Pardon me while I drift down Mt. Akina
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I guess I needed to write about this someday. To be reminded of a beautiful mistake. But I would not. It just hurts too much to be remembering that part of my life. I know now never to hold back when in love because to be rejected is better than not knowing what she feels about me.
I guess I will never know and could only move on and hope to get a second chance not to make the same mistake again.
Burning my letters to you cause its feels so right, no matter how wrong it is.
Ashes flying and wondering whether will it be ever okay?
I'm afraid to find the truth among the smoke
Just leave me dreaming in this machine alone please
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I got this from Wai Leong's online photo album.For those not in the know, this is called a mood shot.
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I just got back from Johor where the guys got a mini birthday celebration for me. We went to this eating place "Singgah Selalu" which I think has great food and atmosphere. We spent quite a long time there as we watched the finals of the Malaysia Cup between Selangor and Perlis. Malaysians are really into supporting their local teams unlike Singaporeans who rather watch EPL than the S League. I got a pair of bermudas from the guys which I haven't try out yet but it looks decent.
It's funny sometimes when you waited for something that you know will never happened.You will finally be dissapointed but I think hoping that something will happened is better than not caring at all.Do you care at all?
I have been having weird dreams lately and it's freaking me out.Thanks to all the people who messaged me. It's nice that people remembered your birthday when I forget theirs. Here's to being 20 and trying to act like it.
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