Rugby Mad

Monday, November 28, 2005

The feeling of being alone and not believing that you are in the wrong.

I was reading Isk's and Pul's blogs and it seemed that they've been up to some serious talk. I agreed that sometimes due to us being a large group, the group refering to Naz, Zam, Sham, Isk, Jid and Pul, it's hard for us to have serious conversations sometimes. I feel that for me it's easier to open up to a smaller group as I feel there's a smaller chance of being ridiculed as compared to when all of us are together. Through these years of friendship, I learnt that you can only tell certain things to certain friends. Even then there are still a lot of things I'm holding back. I guess I haven't found someone yet to confide everything to.

I don't know who is the person Isk is talking about and I don't want to guess. I just want to say that I remembered the feeling of losing my friends' friendship once and not speaking to someone cause the rest didn't. The feelings are not the best in the world. So pardon me but I'll stay out of this matter.

I learnt that I tend not to admit my mistakes even when I'm in the wrong. I didn't realize it till my Platoon Sergeant talked to me personally about it. He really opened my eyes and by exposing my weakness so easily, this has strangely left me rejunevated. It makes me more determined to face this challenge called life.

I just cut my hair recently. It looks something like when I was in my Sergeant Course. I expect to be ridiculed but I guess it's cause it's not something I would normally do. I hope to see the guys this weekend. Somehow it feels like ages since I saw any of them especially Isk.

If you're pained by desires that you cannot say, step right up and don't hold back...but I did.

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Tuesday, November 22, 2005

whose heart is your hand extending to?

It's been a good weekend for me. I spent my Saturday going for range and spending some quality time with my platoon. It's rare to get most of them together as most of us would be busy with our duties. I realized that I'm going to miss them when I ORD. They offer me an outlet for me to do some stuff that I think I'll never do with the guys. An example is blasting the live concert at Wembley album of Oasis on the CD player and just singing along as though we were at the concert.

The Sunday was spent going out with the BP group to jalan raya. Before anything there were some hype over how Aini has grown thinner and the guys can't stop talking about how cute Miss Tubaroses ( this what they called her) . In the end, I enjoyed myself throughly. I tried to eat at every house even though I got a fitness test today (which I thankfully passed) . I got to leave a bit early though as Zam was looking a bit sick(he's still sick till today) and I shared a cab with him and made him messaged me when he reach home. Somehow I felt responsible about his health ever since he got into the hospital cause of his asthma as he had been drinking Slurpee from 7-11 across BPGHS daily.

Seing Apul downloading the Bleach anime, I've been busy downloading the Initial D: Fourth Stage anime and it's an excellant continuation to Initial D The Movie(which is one of my most favourite movie) . Seing the anime, I wonder when will ever summon the bravery to go for it? It's slowly corroding my self confidence.

Anyway, I want to know who's been reading my blog so leave a comment aight? Just want to have a feel on who my readers are.

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Monday, November 14, 2005

I had the weirdest of dreams last night. I dreamt I was walking down Orchard Road with Leroy and Bam Bam. Bam Bam was pointing out some girls out to me and I kept saying that they're not pretty. Then all of a sudden Bam Bam shouted at me "No wonder you no girlfriend!!!You are just too bloody choosy!!". And I wake up at that. My first thought was I really should wash my feet before sleeping next time. My second thought when I looked at my watch was that I had only one more minute till I must take over duty.

Now that I'm fully awake after sleeping since reaching home, I start wondering whether what Bam Bam said was true. Then I thought that frankly I don't give a damn.

Oh I got a riddle for you all

The one who is chasing has no legs. The one being chased cannot run. What's chasing what?

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Sunday, November 06, 2005

There was so many things happening during my 4 days 3 nights stay at Malaysia that I decided to break it down into lists. So here goes and one of the things that happened is fake. Try guessing which one is fake.

Things that I feel shouldn't happened on the night before Hari Raya:

1. Discovering how to go to Zouk KL by myself ( Everyone say Pandai Abang Ahmad)

2. Driving around KL without a license and thankfully not getting caught ( I can't help it if I'm young and dangerous)

3. Found out that all this while we have been celebrating my mom's birthday on the wrong date.

4. Seeing my cousin who is married with kids trying to pick up the cashier who's like way younger than him at the 7 11 store where we were buying cigarettes and his reason is he is still young at heart.

5. Thinking about my life ( this happens everytime I'm at Malaysia and I don't know why)

Things that happened on Hari Raya

1. Too much rendang and ketupat will cause frequent trips to toilets.

2. My cousin who I think is cute told my sis I looked handsome that day. ( Why must we be cousins? Haiz...)

3. Never drive with your dad who has been driving for ages beside you. He's worse than a driving instructor.It gets worse when your mom who got 6 points for her TP test is the backseat driver.

4. Watching the movie Pontianak at my uncle's house and hear my aunt's stories of her trips to her kampung at Kluang and how it's haunted and stuff. Then your sister who heard the stories wakes you up in the middle of the night and ask her to accompany her to the toilet. Not one time but 3 times. Reason? See number 1.

5. Discovered the soft drinks at Malaysia taste funny and start wondering whether I should boil them first just to be on the safe side.

6. Discovered that the Malaysian staff at Giant wear their baju kurung to work.Seeing dad thinking this guy who was wearing baju kurung is part of the staff and start asking where the light bulbs were. He was a customer.

7. Watched 2 concerts of Siti Nurhaliza. Yeah I like Siti ( Acoustic bersama Siti and Siti at Royal Albert's Hall)

8. Finding this girl in one of the Malaysian Hari Raya commercial very cute.

9. To be asked where my wife is by some relatives and why I never bring her along. ( Do I even look married? Maybe it's the tummy)

That's all folks for tonight. Selected photos will be up soon.

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