Rugby Mad

Saturday, March 25, 2006

My father's uncle father passed away this morning. It was a sad affair as he was a good man and had helped a lot of people in his lifetime. It's evident when you see all these people who even his wife don't know coming up to her ,giving her money for the funeral. In the end, everything is left behind and those who stayed can only pray and hope that he will be given a place in Heaven. Those who stayed were left with words that they wish they said when he was alive

The last conversation I had with him while he was in the hospital was about my place in polytechnic and my driving licence. Even though he could not speak due to the tubes in his throat, he still managed a thumb up. The last visit was when we were supposed to visit Naz, and my dad's uncle was asleep and I can only see him from the window for his ward as I don't want to disturb him.

I think only at a funeral will you see how the deceased live his life. All the people cancelling the plans for the day to come and attend, trying to help out with the cost by giving money and praying for the deceased. It makes you think will it be the same for your funeral.

I'm emotionally affected by the death of this person I call Tok Haji. It seems unbelievable that he passed away as he seems to be getting better but in the end I must live with the fact that every living thing must die in the end. I'm gonna miss him.. his jokes.. his presence. The porridge that he gets from the mosque he working at, that he always give to his relatives. For now, I can only carry on with my life as I get over this period of mourning and pray for Tok Haji. And again reflect on my life.

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Wednesday, March 15, 2006

We have our moments of loneliness. Times that we need for ourselves to think, to reflect on our roles in this world. It would be easier to be persistent but I know when to draw the line. I would like to say I know how you feel but I'll be lying to you. It's harder to ignore what you doing to yourself but I think this is the best step for now. I just want you to know I'll be there to pull you up when you are ready. I'll just be a hindrance anytime before that.

I wish upon a star that you come a bit sooner... I got so much to say and ask...

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Monday, March 06, 2006

When honesty is no longer the best policy, do we remain silent for the sake of our relationships? There are many things that I would like to say to you, I don't know how...

Sometimes I feel that I do not know enough about the people around me. Not that I don't want to but I never have been good at being a friend, even with people I care about. It's something I'm trying to improve along the way. Wanting to know everything but no one's answering...

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