There was no excuse for my actions. I thought only girls usually do this. Instead, while waiting for the class to arrive, my friend, Asyraf and I engage in a camwhoring session. The lab technician gave us weird stares as we pose and laugh at our photos. Of course, it took a long time to take the photographs as Asyraf had to make sure his hair looks nice. By the way, Mr Asyraf is single so any girls who is interested in him can contact me and I will pass your message along. By the way, it was Asyraf's idea and I was an innocent victim. To put it simply, I was used.
Yesterday, we had a training game to prepare for this Thurday's game against United World College. It was the Possibles versus the Probables. The game showed the depth in quality we had especially in the forwards. Every single forward for both teams are experienced players and are talented. It showed when most of the tries were scored by us. I even managed to score one myself. It'll be a taxing week as we are having two games, on Thursday and Saturday against the Northern Knights. It will not be easy due to the fasting period. I guess we just had to endured on and not be weak minded as this is just a test of our strength.
You can be sure that in everything you do, I'll be at the side supporting you.
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The time is 3 a.m. I can't sleep as my bottom left gums hurt so much. Panadol didn't work. Butter didn't work. My mom said it's an ulcer and she said I got it as I didn't drink enough water. One of my sisters said to put ice on it to reduce the ulcer while the other said to drink hot soup so that the ulcer will burst so that it'll heal faster. I took a look in the mirror and I can't spot any ulcer. In fact, I don't know how an ulcer looks like. I just check the Wikipedia and ulcers are a serious problem. I didn't like the part where it said lengthy healing time. The thing about me is I don't like unnecessary pain. That's why I don't like to exercise or tattoo or do body piercing. In fact, I don't donate blood because of the pain involving needles. Therefore, if this so-called ulcer takes a long time to heal, I'm in deep trouble. I promise myself that the person who can solve my current predicament, if it's a girl, I'll marry her as currently that's my number 1 trait that my dream wife must have. She must be able to cure ulcers quickly. Of course, this may change when my ulcer is gone. If the person is a guy, we'll be friends for life. You never know when an ulcer will occur and you need him to help you again.
Today was spent shopping at the Quicksilver shop at Pacific Plaza which is currently having a 50% clearing out sale. I got myself a long sleeve shirt and a pullover. I also bought a new pair of Nike shoes. The cool thing is it comes with 2 extra pairs of insoles and the insoles have designs on it. My gums really hurt ah. Therefore, my shopping for Hari Raya is done. Anyway, forgive me as I've been cursing at you people who don't update blogs. This is as I'm having my holidays and when it's not spent on rugby and going out, I usually will go online and look at blogs. That's why you'll notice I've been updating quite regularly and been commenting on your posts.I feel like cutting off my gums. Lucky for me, school's starting next Monday.
Fasting month is starting this Sunday so I'll be trying my best to be good on this month. One interesting fact is there's no one to chat on MSN at this hour. So while you people are sleeping soundly, I'll be suffering in pain and watching High School Musical. Only Vanessa Anne Hudgens can reduce this pain now.
UPDATE:
I visited the dentist and it's actually my wisdom tooth erupting. I read up on this topic and it's actually advisable to remove your wisdom teeth erupt partially through the gum now before it'll cause trouble when you are older and will be harder to remove. The dentist also said I got good teeth but bad gums. Therefore I'll be going back to the dentist soon to do some clean up work on my gums. She also gave me some medicine to reduce the pain and swelling but the side effect is it's causing me to shit more. The worse part is I can't close my mouth completely due to the swelling and can't chew properly. Therefore I'm on a liquid diet now.
The shoes that I bought and it's 2 extra insoles. It was on sale at Pacific Plaza. Luckily, Dad was in a good mood and was willing to buy it despite it's slightly high price. My mom said it's cause I've done well for my semester and cause it's my birthday soon.Talking about birthdays, there's nothing that I want or need you people to buy or do. In fact, I will be playing a rugby match against Northern Knights this Saturday with the SP rugby team. The truth is I just want to enjoy the day and want you people to enjoy it with me. No expectations on what the present will be or what will be done on the day. Just a day where I'll be one year older and where everyone have fun.
When we are together, it seems that no one can stop us from doing the things we like to do in our own way.
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Tomorrow afternoon I'll be participating in a rugby game against Greenridge Secondary School with the SP Development Squad. Basically this squad consists of mainly 1st year students who do not know how to play rugby and some of them may be selected for the IVP squad, which is the main squad consisting of the first 30 players. So this game is important for them as it'll showcase their skills and whether they are good enough to make the IVP squad. Of course, they'll be against a squad consisting of players between 13-15 years old but if they can't beat Greenridge, then it'll be harder to get into the IVP squad.I need a new outlet to let out my feelings. It's not that you guys and gals have not been there for me, but I need a fresh opinion on some things that I've been thinking about. I realized the few people I'm comfortable sharing my feelings to are Pul, Zam and maybe Ezdi and Edna. So far, I feel they have offered some good advice on some of things that I'm going through and also some unbiased opinions on my questions about life. Yes, I have this habit of asking questions about life out of nowhere. For example, we could be talking about rugby then the next thing I'll ask what you think about co-habitation, that kind of thing. It's stimulating to have these conversations as sometimes the opinions offered is so different from your own.
Currently, people in SP are calling me Hicai. I got to thank my rugby coach for this as he read my handwriting and thought Hilmi was Hicai. Maybe my handwriting is bad but doesn't Hicai sounds like some Thai name. I thought this Hicai nickname will go away but it got bad enough where my SP friends don't know me anything other than Hicai. They will actually ask who is Ahmad Hilmi until it occured to them that it's actually Hicai. So if people ask whether you know Hicai, you'll know they talking about me.
In conclusion, the stars were too high for us to reach tonight. But we'll get there someday.
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Well I didn't do as badly as I thought. I even managed a distinction for a module which means I'm in the top 5% in that module. But it isn't enough for me. I'll be striving for a GPA of at least 3.5 next semester. This semester had let me gauge my studying abilities and let me know what I need to do to improve in my studies.I have set 3 goals for myself in my time in Singapore Polytechnic. One, to pass my course with a cumulative GPA of at least 3.5 which means I need to get an average of at least a B+ for all my modules. The second is to make it in the Singapore Polytechnic Rugby first team. It will not be easy with the number of talented and experienced players in the team. Currently, the first team is filled with national team trainees or ex-national team trainees. It'll be hard but I know if I make it, it'll be a great accomplishment for me as rugby is one of the few things I think I'm good at and to make the team would confirmed that I'm good in this. The third goal is,well I think my close friends would know what it is so I shall not elaborate till I accomplish it.
It's been a tiring week but a good one spent with friends. I'm looking forward to watch the Div 2 Bowl Semi-Final featuring Bucks Rugby and Police SA tomorrow. I'll be going after rugby training and it'll be at Yio Chu Kang stadium at 7.30 pm. So if you're interested, come on down. This Saturday, I'll be busy with my baby nephew's hair cutting ceremony. It's gonna be a grand affair as it's my uncle and auntie's first grandson. It'll even be held at the void deck. Have a good weekend ahead people.
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People will never stay the same. That's the only certain thing about the future. I remembered when I was young, I used to be a quiet and small boy. Basically it means I was bullied when I went for my religious classed by these 2 boys who were 2 years older than me. They would taunt me and I will just ignored them. The worst part was when they ambushed me when I was in Primary 4. I was going home and took the lift to the 6th level. On the 4th level, they sprang up from nowhere,held me and shoot a toy gun in my head. It was a traumatic experience but they were duly punished.When I was in Secondary 3,there was this guy called Dhruv who sat beside my friend, Pul. Me and Nizam, another friend of mine, sat behind them. I don't know how it start but Nizam, Pul and I start disturbing him. Nizam and I would poke our pens at his back and Pul would dig his nose and put the shit at Dhruv. The climax was putting one of his textbook on the floor and asked everyone to step on it. Everyone did and one of the pages tore. The next day, our dear and pretty form teacher had a talk with me and Pul about bullying.
It's ironic that sometimes I feel I don't want certain activities or people to change when I also have changed. I have done some things I'm not proud of but isn't that life? To make mistakes and learn from them. How much do we know someone until we stop for a while and make the effort to? The worst part is that the person you knew yesterday may change the next time you meet. The question is can friendship accept the changes? The answer is...
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I found some photos of the time when I was an MP Spec 2 trainee. The time spend as a trainee was definitely one of the best period in my life.
Ready For War
Having a talk with our company officer.
Our completed Machine Gunner Pit
My section commander briefing us on the mission
Our last run
Relaxing at our Mowbray Lounge
Performing a Chinese Song for Happy Hour
Rashid And Me. The guy who was posted to DB with me. Without him, NS would not be as much fun.
Inspecting the food.
I missed these guys. We may be one of the smallest batch but we had the best camadrie.Thanks for the memories. The temporary isolation made me realized what I want in life and for my future. When the sun rises again, I'll be there with you, my friend. Will you be there for me too?
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I'll be waiting for your reply.
Till then, I'll be out of contact.
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Packs down at the back of the scrum, between the two locks.Responsible for the crucial role of providing the scrum-half with good ball from the base of the scrum or launching attacks from the same position. Often more physically imposing than his back row colleagues, he is a ball winner at the tail of the lineout and a ball carrier in loose play. One of the cool positons in the team as he's always in the middle of all the plays. I could play this position but prefer my flanker position to this. I don't have good game awareness to really excell in this position.
Guess who pasted her picture on my room's calender.
My sister never fail to surprise me with her actions. Ok lah, she's not totally to blame. My mom did ask her to paste a picture to cover the dog's picture on the calender for religious reasons. But of all pictures, she chose that. Well, at least it's not the picture of her in my uniform. That still bring a smile to me when I think about it.Do I? by Plain Sunset
Do you miss me?
Do you think about me?
Do I make you cry everytime you think of me?
I love you
I still think about you
You still make me cry everytime I think of you
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The flanker who binds onto the side of a scrum furthest from a touchline.A ball winner whose role is to disrupt the opposition's backs.Usually the quickest of the forwards, he often provides an extra man for his own backs in an attacking move.Thrives on battering fly-halves and centres. Another of my favourite positions. Competition in SP is tough for this position. Well it's better to have lots of talented reserves than no reserves. Reminds me of last time when I was in JJC and there was absolutely no one to sub me. And the coach will always say "Ok Ahmad, later I'll sub you.".Yeah rite.
It's the holidays and there's absolutely nothing to do. Last Friday was spent watching my school captain playing for his club, Bucks. Another reason is that si Tukang Jual Minyak a.ka. Rain wants to join the club and wants to see them in action. I'm thinking of joining a club too, maybe SRC but it'll be after the POLITE games are over. And yes, we do have to be polite during the games. According to the coach, no flower language in the games is allowed like "Rose you ah!" or "You go and tulip ah". Why SRC? Well, I used to play for them. I even got this Hawaiian shirt they give me. Their facilities such as the hot and cold pool and swimming pools is also a major plus. The clubhouse is also easy to get to as City Hall Mrt Station is nearby.
There was this segment in the sports camp where one of the trainer talked about the different kinds of training a rugby player should do throughout the year. Since it'll be too late to do the pre-season training, I'm starting straight into the season training. I want to be at least match fit and also improve in my skills because this year's team has really a lot of talented players. It'll be a challenge to break into the first team but my aim this year is to at least make it into the first 30 who'll be registered in the POLITE games. It'll be hard, but determination is my middle name.
your beautiful eyes is killing me softly
your faith gives me strength to believe
and when all else fails between us
we'll just gonna start anew again
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