Rugby Mad

Friday, December 22, 2006

It has been a week of soul searching and trying to find the courage to tell the truth eventually. I have done a few things in my life that I am not proud of. I admit I do not think before I act then and this has lead to battles with my conscience now.

Living a life of double standards and kept feelings. It has certainly been eating me from the inside. Love and friendship are the only things that making me move forward. But alas, with every step forward I seem to be taking two steps back.

To tell the truth eventually. It has shackle me from finding the one thing that I have yearn for so long. A matter of time only it depends on whether it will be too late or too soon. The only comfort is telling the truth is the right thing to do, just that I can't promise there will be no disappointments in the end.

an act of laughter and happiness to hide the sadness in my eyes...

` try scored

Ahmad Hilmi Bin Mohd Omar aka Notahmad aka Hicai
In the search for perfection, I overlook you, You with all your mistakes and misfortune, You who will be the one who make me believe in this.